“Do you think we should spend some time talking about your marriage and divorce? We haven’t really explored it yet — do you think it’s something you might still need to work through?”
 

Six months into therapy, and somehow I had avoided the subject - to a point.
 

“Wait — you were married? How old are you?”

Yes - I know some of you are saying that, as it’s not something that comes up too often. I was married from 2012 to 2022, when the divorce was finalized. I’m exactly 30 days away from turning 35. If you’re doing the math, I was 21 when I got married.
 

When Tuesday night arrived, I went into my session without a clear topic in mind. As I entered the room, I noticed a few words on my therapist’s whiteboard, but my eyes gravitated to the word depression.
 

Building from that starting point, our conversation unfolded naturally. We went on to discuss my recent diagnoses of anxiety and depression and how my doctor adjusted my medication. This, in turn, led to a conversation about goals—what I hoped for in the coming year and the final closure I needed regarding my ex-husband.
 

The final year should be the easiest to deal with.  I have lived with so much peace, love, and happiness over the last several years, and yet dealing with this feels like I am reopening the coffin, pulling everything back into the light, and starting again from the very first nail — even though I know that this truly is the end of it.

To say it is easy, but to train an anxious mind and heart, that is an entirely different matter.